This is probably a really different post for me. I just wanted to say to all those for supporting me.. thank you! You have no idea how you've helped me. Your encouraging comments and support keeps me going everyday. Seriously. If i was all alone and had no one with me, then i don't think i would continute this. I would want to die. But i noticed every since i mentioned recovery from anorexia or something, people have been so willing to help me. i love that. I love the help and support everyone have given me.
One thing i haven't really done yet, is weigh the pros and cons of anorexia. I think there will be more cons than pros which is good but i'll see what comes up.
I get to be really thin
People will focus on my weight instead of my personality
I get a "high" from getting dizzy when i don't eat anything
I get to model and could be on the runway in no time
I looked like a little kid
I could die anytime if i keep continuing it
Models get thin gradually. If i was already thin, i think people would not want to hire me
I could have a heart attack
I hate being isolated with everyone because i'm affraid there's going to be food around
I guess there is more cons than pros. And that's a good thing! When i look at the reasons why i want to have an eating disorder, they seem sad and weak. I want to be strong. I want to make a difference in the world. And most of all, i want to recover from this illness and come out a better person.